Staying Busy
In the world of Politics and Hollywood, you're confronted with a mass majority of liars and thieves. I like to pride myself on being a fairly honest type of person.
In the world of Politics and Hollywood, those who make it are generally successful and well off. I work in an office and have been running on a debt treadmill for years.
To be successful and well off, you've got to be a liar and a thief. Of course, just because all successful people are thieves doesn't mean all thieves are successful. I have family members who can attest to this; you've got to be a smart thief.
I'm not sitting here telling you I want to be rich and famous; I'm not so vain or greedy. But, I AM telling you that I want to be rich and famous. Because I hate working, I've chosen writing as my craft, and motherfucker I better be paid if I'm not working.
I could see myself as a miser. I'm already an antisocial loner - unless I'm drinking, when I magically transform into someone who can tolerate and indeed enjoy the company of others - I might as well have the big house and the money bin. It really doesn't take all that much to make me happy. I'd see the world, buy a few Amoeba's worth of CDs and DVDs, take up every hobby under the sun that doesn't involve potential bodily harm. What I'm really saying is: round-the-clock hookers. Fuck 'em, feed 'em, and throw 'em out the fuckin' mansion! Am I right, Mothers Against Drunk Driving? Damn skippy I'm right.
Of course, I could also see myself as a happily married man who comes out of his hateful bitter cocoon and starts smelling the fucking roses. In which case, I'll probably relish small talk, I'll be the first one to greet a co-worker as we pass in the halls (as opposed to being the first one to avoid eye contact and the second one to mumble a monosyllabic retort), and I'd stop praying for my morning commuter bus to flip over on its side so I can finally see if those emergency windows really eject outward when you pull the red levers like the directions say.
As I was running today, a cute girl on a bike smiled and waved as she passed me. It doesn't take much to make me happy; a fat slob sweating through his beard and dark blue tank top while wearing over-sized headphones connected to the world's smallest iPod.
More than anything, I just crave excitement. I'm dead tired all fucking day until 11pm rolls around, then try to get me to fall asleep! I'm writing on here like a ninny when I probably should've went to bed an hour ago. It's just so hard when you feel like it's never going to change. This is your life for the next howevermany years. There's no regret, there's only morosity. I made my bed, and it's not the worst bed in the world, but the fucking matress sags in the middle and there's a pee stain next to the coil that pokes me in my dick. I'm not sleeping on hot coals or fire ants, but it's a far cry from memory foam and a down comforter.
You eventually have to realize what you are and fuck the delusions. Is it too late to run away to Hawaii and take up surfing?
In the world of Politics and Hollywood, those who make it are generally successful and well off. I work in an office and have been running on a debt treadmill for years.
To be successful and well off, you've got to be a liar and a thief. Of course, just because all successful people are thieves doesn't mean all thieves are successful. I have family members who can attest to this; you've got to be a smart thief.
I'm not sitting here telling you I want to be rich and famous; I'm not so vain or greedy. But, I AM telling you that I want to be rich and famous. Because I hate working, I've chosen writing as my craft, and motherfucker I better be paid if I'm not working.
I could see myself as a miser. I'm already an antisocial loner - unless I'm drinking, when I magically transform into someone who can tolerate and indeed enjoy the company of others - I might as well have the big house and the money bin. It really doesn't take all that much to make me happy. I'd see the world, buy a few Amoeba's worth of CDs and DVDs, take up every hobby under the sun that doesn't involve potential bodily harm. What I'm really saying is: round-the-clock hookers. Fuck 'em, feed 'em, and throw 'em out the fuckin' mansion! Am I right, Mothers Against Drunk Driving? Damn skippy I'm right.
Of course, I could also see myself as a happily married man who comes out of his hateful bitter cocoon and starts smelling the fucking roses. In which case, I'll probably relish small talk, I'll be the first one to greet a co-worker as we pass in the halls (as opposed to being the first one to avoid eye contact and the second one to mumble a monosyllabic retort), and I'd stop praying for my morning commuter bus to flip over on its side so I can finally see if those emergency windows really eject outward when you pull the red levers like the directions say.
As I was running today, a cute girl on a bike smiled and waved as she passed me. It doesn't take much to make me happy; a fat slob sweating through his beard and dark blue tank top while wearing over-sized headphones connected to the world's smallest iPod.
More than anything, I just crave excitement. I'm dead tired all fucking day until 11pm rolls around, then try to get me to fall asleep! I'm writing on here like a ninny when I probably should've went to bed an hour ago. It's just so hard when you feel like it's never going to change. This is your life for the next howevermany years. There's no regret, there's only morosity. I made my bed, and it's not the worst bed in the world, but the fucking matress sags in the middle and there's a pee stain next to the coil that pokes me in my dick. I'm not sleeping on hot coals or fire ants, but it's a far cry from memory foam and a down comforter.
You eventually have to realize what you are and fuck the delusions. Is it too late to run away to Hawaii and take up surfing?